My ideal life
I want to finish the school tests, ace the IELTS test, get an internship, pick up learning the languages that I have left off (Japanese, Spanish, Latin), and play chess. Most of what I said so far is all within my reach so I must be happy, right? I don't know tbh. I know learning is supposed to be my big goal of all of this but I am still scared of what will happen if I failed the school tests, got a low IELTS score, got an internship but got fired, lost trust in my learning languages abilities.
But I have learnt English, correct? No, because it was the young me that have learnt English. I'm still unable to prove to my 'now' self that I can learn a language yet. I don't want to keep telling my parents promises that I'm unsure are going to happen or not. Why did it gotten dark all of a sudden?
In conclusion, my ideal life is that I get to exercise every day, be able to learn at any time with my own time constraint, and play the game I dearly loved, chess. I guess I'm not free as I would wish, maybe...