Korossol Into The Ring 17

I wish I wasn't. That's actually why I came on Langcorrect. I am a writer (a not published one, but still.) Before I was a writer, I was a storyteller, and my primary audience was me. I was always either reading or daydreaming, I knew what escapism was before I learnt the word. I always told myself stories, created characters, had adventures and discovered countries. I liked long stories that I could follow for days and characters I could see grow up, marry, have children on their own... I didn't like school, not that it's remarkable, and I didn't fit with kids my age, which again is a bit of a cliché. Anyway.
The books I read fed my imagination and my inner world (or maybe my "inner worlds") grew. I never had problems creating new stories.
Then I got older and began to write those stories. Immediately, things got more complicated because daydreaming for an hour or two and trying to write a long story, especially before having a computer were... very different things. I was lazy, I wasn't exactly motivated and I didn't know how to stop. I still have stories somewhere on the web of which the end is incredibly blunt. "And that's how it is." (People sometimes still write me asking for the real end and I feel sorry.) (I got better at it, though.) But I got better and I never lack material: my head is full of podcasts, youtube videos, books and fanfiction.
And there is the catch: since years, I read more fanfiction than anything, most of it in English. I began to write in English in my mind last year, and it frustrates me. Because I work a lot with the rythm of the story (I am a storyteller first, remember) and translating is not satisfying. So here am I, trying to write coherently so I can keep telling stories...