I still want to talk about my weakness.

I think I am not good at dealing with relationships with my leaderbosses.

I don't know what I should talk about with them, and I just wait for their directions.

DI only do what they let me do and don't do what they didon't let me do.

Or: "I only do what they allow me to." (Much more concise, but gets the same idea across.)

Besides these, I also can not feel the joys of being a leader, and I think being a leader is indeed boring and annoying.

Meanwhile, if mya colleague gets promoted, I usually don't actively get in touch with them because I think they already have a higher position than me.

Plus, when I attend a meeting, I always like to sit in a corner, and I also avoid meeting leaders.

If I can not avoid them, I just smile or slightly nod my head as a greeting.

All in all, I always avoid showing up on thetanding on stage.

I just want to be an audience member sitting in the back row.

Sometimes I think I must have an illness called social phobia or autism.

"social phobia" and "autism" are two different conditions, but the sentence as you wrote it could be read as saying that they were two different ways of saying the same thing.

I stillonce again want to talk about my weakness.

I think I am not good at dealing with relationships with my leadermy boss.

"leader" is a positive word. In this context neutral words "boss", "manager" or "superior" are more appropriate

Do what they let me do and don't do what they didon't let me do.

Besides these, I also can not feel the joys of being a leader andboss. I think being a leaderboss is indeed boring and annoying.

In a wshordt, being an ordinary staff member is more relaxing than being a leader.

Meanwhile, if my colleagues gets promoted, I usually don't actively get in touch with them because I think they already have a higher position than me.

Plus, when I attend a meeting, I always like to sit in a corner and I also avoid meeting leademy superiors.

If I can not avoid them, I just smile or slightly nod my head as a greeting.

either "can't" or "cannot"

All in all, I always avoid showing up on the stage.

I just want to be an audience sittingsit in the back row.