When I went to the sea induring the Gold Week, the wind was quite strong, and so were the waves.

I stood in the water, I could feelt the wave stronglystrong waves trying to takinge me away.

I looked down my feet, and saw the waves flewrecede back into the sea,. I felt dizzy.

I seemed like, if I wasn't careful enough, I would be taken away by the waves and, never came backto return.

Because of the cold air, the weather is a little cold, which I like mobest.

Today is Saturday, it is sovery quiet outside at night.

All I can hear areis the winds.

It is so peaceful that I always keep thinking about "how wonderful it will be if Iould be to die in theis moment.

In summer, when I feel fairly uncomfortable, I always want to die, because I can't beare the uglystifling weather.

Regardless, when it cool down at night, I like to staygo on the top floor and watch the sun sets.

With the bleeze blowing, I always feel peaceful, then I also and I consider that it willould be wonderful to die in a peaceful moment like this.

I still remember that, when I was at college, I told a senior schoolmate that I wanted to walk through the desert because I wanted to feel despair.

He told me that I hadmust been despairondent if I thought so.

意思是绝望吗？

He was wrong, I wasn't despair at thate time, at least II just desired to have different experience, I was still curious about the world.