AM02:00の感情

高くて茶色な椅子に腰かけて、エメの「Am02:00」という曲を聴きながら、様々な感情を感じる。懐かしいなあ。子供の頃、こんな感情的な曲をよく聞いていた。同じ曲じゃなくても、あの時のような同じ気持ちを受ける。サビを歌う声が聞こえて、悲喜こもごも記憶で脳をあふれる。俺たちはその時、わざと思い出を作れたくなかった。楽しんだだけだ。でも、どうやら思い出に変わった日がもう来たらしい。さっきほど我知らず頬を触った。沈黙な部屋で静かに涙が流れた。悲しむではなく、むしろは喜びだと思う。癒せる風が自分の肌を撫でているってかんじ。なんとなく、気づけなかった心の傷は癒されたんだ。よかったね。笑っちゃたぐらいよかったね。生きることは最高。生きてよかった。

While listening to Aimer's "Am02:00," sitting in a tall brown chair I feel a variety of emotions. How nostalgic. When I was child, I had often listened to these kind of sentimental songs. Although it's not the same song from back then, I still get the same feelings as I would from back then. Bittersweet memories overflow my brain as the chorus hits. We weren't trying to make memories on purpose at that time. We were just having fun. But, I suppose the day for when they turned into memories has already come. Just now I reflexively touched my cheek. I had silently shed tears in the quiet room. Not from sadness, but rather from joy. Like a healing wind brushing up on your skin. For on reason or another, a scar on my heart that I hadn't noticed had been healed. I'm glad. To the point where I accidentally laughed. Living is the best. I'm glad I'm alive.