Mikkabouzu, have you ever heard this word?

It is Japanese proverb, which means "Start doing new something new, but never continue it for more than three days or so long".

Since elementary school, I washave suffered bywith this phenomena.

NoActually, I am generating this phenomena by my self, anyway.

Let's me share my history of Mikkabouzu firstly.

When I was 9 years old, I makede a promise to myself to a write a letter forto my grand father for each month.

It was end when it turnsThat promise ended after 2 months.

When I was 13 years old, I makede a promise to myself to read a book every week.

It was end byThat ended after I reading ONE book.

When I was 17 years old, I bought a thick drawing book sketchpad to draw a picture.

It was end to draew only one small illustration.

At the same age, I makede a decision to make a bag by myself and. I went to the clothfabric shop and spent $100 to buying gorgeous fabric.

After completing the handle, I was burninged out.

And I put it awaythe other fabrics to theaway under the bed.

At least I didn't throw it away.

Because I have hope to have motivation againin the future to complete bags.

When I got my letter of acceptance from university, I decided to post English sentences every day in langcorrect.

And after my third post, I was burning out again.

My last post iwas in May.

And now I do nostill don’t have the ability to make and read English sentences.

But iIn two months, I will be a foreign university student.

I really do understand ithat I need to study English, but at the same time, I also know iI have cChat GPT or gemini and Ithey will help me so much.

In my livesfe, I can not countrely on myself to make a decision myself.

Every time I betrayed myself.

Maybe, always my decision is too high level for me I’m aiming too high?

Or am I just I ama tremendously lazy person?

My thought is never resoloved.

It is a Japanese proverb, which means "Start doing new things but never continue more than three days or so long".

Since elementary school, I was sufferafflicted by this phenomena.

No, I am genercreating this phenomena by my self, anyway.

When I was 9 years old, I makede a promise to myself to a write a letter forto my grand father for each month.

It was ended when it turnsgot to 2 months.

When I was 13 years old, I makede a promise to myself to read a book every week.

It was end byended with reading ONE book.

When I was 17 years old, I bought a thick drawing book to draw a pictures.

It was end toended with drawing only one small illustration.

At the same age, I makede a decision to makesew a bag by myself and I went to the cloth shop and spent $100 to buy some gorgeous fabric.

After completing the handle, I was burning outexhausted.

And I put it away with other fabrics to the under the bed.

Because I have hope to have motivation again to complete the bags.

When I got a letter of acceptance from university, I decided to post English sentences every day ion lLangcorrect.

And after my third post, I was'm burninged out/ worn out again.

My last post ientry was in May.

And now I do not have the ability to make and read English sentences.

But in two months, I will be a foreign university student.

I really understand iI need to study English but at the same time, I also know iI have cChat GPT or gGemini and Iit will help me so much.

In my livespersonal life, I can not count on myself to mtake a decision myself.

Maybe, alwayis my decision is too high of a level for me?

MIs my decision is always beyond my ability?

Or just I amI am only a tremendous lazy person?

My thought is never soloved.