My Regrets

Every time I look back, I am filled with regrets.

After I started working in a city, I slacked off for roughly twenty years because I thought I no longer needed to do farm work and already had a decent job.

I had a weak body since birth, but I didn’t take it seriously. I used to drink and smoke from time to time and didn’t exercise regularly.

I didn’t set a lifelong goal or try my best to achieve it.

I excelled academically in school and was always the top student in my class and even in my grade, but I didn’t choose to study at the top high school in my city. Instead, I chose to study at a technical secondary school.

In 2004, after realizing I had wasted nearly twenty years, I decided to work extremely hard to make up for those wasted years.

I eventually quit drinking and smoking a few years ago, which I see as the greatest achievement I have made in my life.

As for a lifelong goal, I think it’s too late for me to set one.

Also, I can’t achieve my dream of studying at a university. However, I often wonder which university I might have attended if I had studied at that top high school.

Naturally, I cannot figure it out, but the only thing I am certain of is that I was one of the top eighteen students in the high school entrance exam that year in my county.

Time flies, and everything keeps changing. I know I can’t go back in time, but acknowledging my regrets is still encouraging in some ways.