For theThroughout last week, I've been listening to a lot tof podcasts on a specific domain, which is psychology. Throughout last week, I've been listening to a lot of podcasts on psychology.

"podcasts on a specific domain which is psychology." is a bit clunky, and "podcasts on psychology" makes it sound smoother.

For the lpast week, I've been listening to a lot tof podcasts on a specific domain, which is psychology. For the past week, I've been listening to a lot of podcasts on psychology.

FoOver the lpast week, I've been listening to a lot to podcasts onabout a specific domaintopic , which is psychology. Over the past week, I've been listening to a lot to podcasts about a specific topic , which is psychology.

For the lpast week I've been listening a lot to podcasts on aone specific domain, which is psychology. For the past week I've been listening a lot to podcasts on one specific domain, psychology.

I decided to narrow down my field of study because I want to master at least one domain before exploring the other ones. I decided to narrow down my field of study because I want to master at least one domain before exploring other ones.

"field of study" or "field of 'x.'" Just "my field" seems a bit odd here in my opinion.

I decided to narrow down my field because I want to master at least one domain before exploring the other ones. I decided to narrow down my field because I want to master at least one domain before exploring others.

While this is grammatically correct, it feels a bit awkward because I don’t know if you’re majoring in the field (because it’s just about podcasts) or if you’re narrowing down your interests or narrowing down the podcast genres you’re listening to because you want to learn about a topic in-depth before you move on. I’ve rarely heard someone say that they “mastered” a topic just by listening to podcasts…

I decided to narrow down my field because I want to master at least one domain/field/area before exploring (the) other ones. I decided to narrow down my field because I want to master at least one domain/field/area before exploring (the) other ones.

I've always been interested in psychology, and because that's one of my favorite topics, I'm goingd like to share with you some insights which I'vesome discoveries that I stumbled upon this week. I've always been interested in psychology, and because that's one of my favorite topics, I'd like to share some discoveries that I stumbled upon this week.

I think the phrase "I'd like to share" is a better way of expressing the idea "I'm going to share." I also think that "discoveries" would fit here better than "insights," but this here is also personal touches I would do.

I've always been interested in psychology, and because that'it’s one of my favorite topics, I'm goingwant to share with you some insights which I'’ve stumbled uponacross this week. I've always been interested in psychology, and because it’s one of my favorite topics I'm want to share some insights which I’ve stumbled across this week.

I've always been interested in psychology, and because thaas it's one of my favorite topics, I'm going to share with you some insights which I've stumbled upon this week. I've always been interested in psychology, and as it's one of my favorite topics, I'm going to share with you some insights which I've stumbled upon this week.

I've always been interested in psychology, and because thaas it's one of my favourite topics, I'm going to share with you some insights which I've stumbled upon this week. I've always been interested in psychology, and as it's one of my favourite topics, I'm going to share some insights which I've stumbled upon this week.

First of all, I developed the amazing researcher Brene Brown, a professor from​ Texas and author of many books about vulnerability and shame. First of all, I developed the amazing researcher Brene Brown, a professor from​ Texas and author of many books about vulnerability and shame.

I am not sure what "developed" is intended to mean here. Are you trying to say "I delved into the works of the amazing researcher Brene Brown?"

First of all, I developiscovered the amazing researcher Brene Brown,; a professor from​ Texas and an author of many books about vulnerability and shame. First of all, I discovered the amazing researcher Brene Brown; a professor from​ Texas and an author of many books about vulnerability and shame.

First of all, I developed(?) listened to/read about/etc.. the amazing researcher Brene Brown, a professor from​ Texas and (an) author of many books about vulnerability and shame. First of all, I developed(?) listened to/read about/etc.. the amazing researcher Brene Brown, a professor from​ Texas and (an) author of many books about vulnerability and shame.

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First of all, I developed the amazing researcher Brene Brown, a professor from​ Texas and author of many books about vulnerability and shame. First of all, I developed the amazing researcher Brene Brown, a professor from​ Texas and author of many books about vulnerability and shame.

what does 'developed' mean?

In her books and lectures, Brene speaks about the importance of being vulnerable and sharing with others your true feelings and thoughts with others. In her books and lectures, Brene speaks about the importance of being vulnerable and sharing your true feelings and thoughts with others.

In her opinion, that's the only way to establish meaningful connections,: building friendships and finding love. In her opinion, that's the only way to establish meaningful connections: building friendships and finding love.

In her opinion, that's the only way to establish meaningful connections, is to build friendships and find love. In her opinion, the only way to establish meaningful connections is to build friendships and find love.

These topics caught my attention because of my own quite wreckedwretched/miserable/etc. relationships riddled with shame and vulnerability throughout my whole life. These topics caught my attention because of my own wretched/miserable/etc. relationships riddled with shame and vulnerability throughout my life.

Rather than doing "quite *adj*" I gave a few other adjectives that may fit better here. "Riddled with" conveys a stronger meaning of the amount of shame and vulnerability you experienced through those relationships. "Throughout" already shows that it happened through your whole life, so "whole" is not necessary.

These topics caught my attention because of my own quite wrecbrokedn relationships filled with shame and vulnerability throughout my whole life. These topics caught my attention because of my own broken relationships filled with shame and vulnerability throughout my whole life.

These topics caught my attention because of my own qruite wreckned relationships, filled with shame and vulnerability throughout my whole/entire life. These topics caught my attention because of my own ruined relationships, filled with shame and vulnerability throughout my whole/entire life.

I recall my fierce twenties, when everything I was actually doing. All I did was being rebellious and, dismissing everything and everyone who tried/attempted to give me life advice about life. I recall my fierce twenties. All I did was be rebellious, dismissing everything and everyone who tried/attempted to give me life advice.

Here, I rephrased this to sound a bit more natural. Feel free to ask if you want to know why I made these changes.

I recall my fierce twenties, when everything I was actually doing was actually just being rebellious and. I was dismissing everything and everyone who tried to give me advice about life. I recall my fierce twenties, when everything I was doing was actually just being rebellious. I was dismissing everything and everyone who tried to give me advice about life.

I recall my fierceexciting twenties, when everything I was actually doing was being rebellious and, dismissing everything and everyone who tried to give me life advice about life. I recall my exciting twenties, when everything I was actually doing was rebellious, dismissing everything and everyone who tried to give me life advice.

I recall my fierce twenties, when everything I was actually doing was beingall I would do is act rebellious and dismissing everything and everyone who tried to give me advice about life. I recall my fierce twenties, when all I would do is act rebellious and dismiss everything and everyone who tried to give me advice about life.

Now, I think the one and only reason for my demonstrativefiant/rebellious/unruly behavior, except hormones, was my unwillingness to be vulnerable. Now, I think the one and only reason for my defiant/rebellious/unruly behavior, except hormones, was my unwillingness to be vulnerable.

I think you chose the word "demonstrative" because of demonstrations being a thing, but that is not related to the word demonstrative. Instead, this means to demonstrate something, a feeling/proof of something, etc.

Now I think the one and only reason for my demonstrauctive behavior, exceptother than hormones, was my unwillingness to be vulnerable. Now I think the one and only reason for my destructive behavior, other than hormones, was my unwillingness to be vulnerable.

Now I think the one and only reason for my demonstrative behavior, exceptbehavior, apart from hormones, was my unwillingness to be vulnerable. Now I think the one and only reason for my behavior, apart from hormones, was my unwillingness to be vulnerable.

I was so scared by the possibility of revealing my weakness as a human creature that I pretended to feel good even though most of the time I didn'tperson/human that I hid my true emotions by pretending to feel good. I was so scared by the possibility of revealing my weakness as a person/human that I hid my true emotions by pretending to feel good.

I tried to keep most of what you had intact while making it sound more natural. "Human creature" seems a bit stiff here. Most of the time, people would use "person," but you can try using "human" also (still a bit of that stiffness). The section "I pretended to feel good even though most of the time I didn't feel good" is a bit wordy, so I condensed it to "I hid my true emotions by pretending to feel good." This also prevents the need to repeat "feel good."

I was so scared by the possibility of revealing my weaknesses as a human creaturebeing that I pretended to feel good even though most of the time I didn't feel good. I was so scared by the possibility of revealing my weaknesses as a human being that I pretended to feel good even though most of the time I didn't.

Hiding my worries and avoiding straight questions were the ways of defending myself, which let me just fade into the background, as a flawless and seemingly perfect person. Hiding my worries and avoiding straight questions were the ways of defending myself, which let me fade into the background as a flawless and seemingly perfect person.

Hiding my worries and avoiding straighdirect questions were the ways of defending myself, which. It let me just fade into the background, as a seemingly flawless and seemingly perfect person. Hiding my worries and avoiding direct questions were ways of defending myself. It let me just fade into the background, as a seemingly flawless and perfect person.

Hiding my worries and avoiding straight/direct questions were the ways ofas how I defendinged myself, which let me justallowed me to fade into the background, as a flawless and seemingly perfect person. Hiding my worries and avoiding straight/direct questions was how I defended myself, which allowed me to fade into the background as a flawless and seemingly perfect person.

Hiding my worries and avoiding straight questions were thejust ways of defending myself, which let me just fade into the background, as a flawless and seemingly perfect person. Hiding my worries and avoiding straight questions were just ways of defending myself, which let me fade into the background as a flawless and seemingly perfect person.

Refusing vulnerability gave me a fatresulted in a whole lot of good. Refusing vulnerability resulted in a whole lot of good.

"fat lot of" isn't really used, but I'd say that the closest expression I can think of is "whole lot of."

Refusing vulnerability gave me aA fat lot of good. that did me A fat lot of good that did me

Refusing to be vulnerability gavele did me a fat lot of good (-or so I thought). Refusing to be vulnerable did me a lot of good (-or so I thought).

Since no one knew about my weaknesses, I thought no one could  hurt or mock me. Since no one knew about my weaknesses, I thought no one could hurt or mock me.

It was a safe, but also a lonely life. It was a safe, but also a lonely life.

It was a safe, but also a lonely life. It was a safe but lonely life.

It was a safe, but also a lonely life. It was a safe, but also lonely life.

The trickhing is, when no one could get through your defense for hurting, no one could also reach you fors, there is also no one that can get through to caringe. The thing is, when no one could get through your defenses, there is also no one that can get through to care.

I think it's fine to just use defenses by itself, since it can be infered from context what the defense is for. The other part is more of a stylistic choice.

The trickuth is, when no one couldan get through your defense for hurting, no one could alsoan reach you for caring either. The truth is, when no one can get through your defense for hurting, no one can reach you for caring either.

The trick is, when no one could get through your defense for hurting, no one could also reach you for caring.see that you were hurting on the inside, no one could was able to care for you. The trick is, when no one could see that you were hurting on the inside, no one could was able to care for you.

I understand what you mean here, but it sounds very unnatural

WThichs means, that you don't get painful experiences, but, similarly, you don't get love. This means that you don't get painful experiences, but, similarly, you don't get love.

Which means, you don't get painful experiences, but, similarly, you don't get love. by the same token, you don't get to experience love either. Which means, you don't get painful experiences, but by the same token, you don't get to experience love either.

Wwhich means that, you don't get (to live through) painful experiences, but, similarly, you don't get love. which means that, you don't get (to live through) painful experiences, but, similarly, you don't get love.

My first thought was, : "Ah, I can skip this part since there's nothing relevant for me." My first thought was: "Ah, I can skip this part since there's nothing relevant for me."

My first thought was, ‘Ah, I can skip this part since there's nothing relevant for me.’ My first thought was, ‘Ah, I can skip this part since there's nothing relevant for me.’

But when I began to recall my life ten years ago, it became crystal clear forto me that I have deep relationships with shame, from keeping my texts unseen to others to muting my real feelings in intimate moments with others. But when I began to recall my life ten years ago, it became crystal clear to me that I have deep relationships with shame from keeping my texts unseen to others to muting my real feelings in intimate moments with others.

But when I began to recall my life ten years ago, i. It became crystal clear for me that I have deep relationships with shame,: from keeping my texts unseen tofrom others, to mutsuppressing/hiding my real feelings during intimate moments with others. But when I began to recall my life ten years ago. It became crystal clear for me that I have deep relationships with shame: from keeping my texts unseen from others, to suppressing/hiding my real feelings during intimate moments with others.

But when I began to recallminisce about my life ten years ago, it became crystal clear for me that I have deep relationships (filled) with shame, from keeping my texts unseen tohidden from others to mutconcealing my real feelings in intimate moments with others. But when I began to reminisce about my life ten years ago, it became crystal clear for me that I have deep relationships (filled) with shame, from keeping my texts hidden from others to concealing my real feelings in intimate moments with others.

In all those moments, I often wanted to just fade away—: not write all that I'd written, not tell all what I’d told my partner, and not answer all the tricky questions about myself. In all those moments, I often wanted to just fade away: not write all that I'd written, not tell all what I’d told my partner, and not answer all the tricky questions about myself.

It would have been easier just to shut down myself down emotionally and let my shame suffocate , suffocating myself in shame. It would have been easier just to shut myself down emotionally, suffocating myself in shame.

It would have been easier just to shut down myself down emotionally and let my shame suffocate me. It would have been easier just to shut myself down emotionally and let my shame suffocate me.

It would have been easier just to shut down myself emotionally and let my shame suffocate me. It would have been easier just to shut down emotionally and let my shame suffocate me.

I don't know why, despite all that tense inner pressure, I was mostly choosinge to sharing, writing and telling instead ofe and write rather than closing myself off completely. I don't know why, despite all that tense inner pressure, I chose to share and write rather than closing myself off completely.

I don't know why, despite the tense inner pressure, I was mostly choosing to sharinge, writinge and telling instead of closshutting myself off. (from others) I don't know why, despite the tense inner pressure, I was mostly choosing to share, write and tell instead of shutting myself off (from others)

iIt might be because I understood that if I had decided to keep silent, it would have been harder to start sharing and speaking again, despite through all the shame. It might be because I understood that if I had decided to keep silent, it would have been harder to start sharing and speaking again through all the shame.

"despite the shame" means even though I had shame it would be harder to share and speak. So I think "through all the shame" might fit better with your intentions.