我心很痛 My Heart Hurts So Much

我最近在陪一個男生。
他是軍人，两次离婚，有两個孩子，他比我小三年。
第一次來我家的話，我有煮晚餐送他吃，一起聊聊。
第二次的話，我們抱彼此睡。
第三次，我們濕吻。
第四次，我們有很亲密的事情。
然後他今天才跟我說他想要慢一點，因為他覺得我們很快。
因為我也是离婚的，所以我會了解，但是蔿什麼我的心還會這麽痛？
真的很痛。
他說我們還可以一起睡，還可以抱一個，就要先做現實朋友。
我覺得我了解，但是... 我心很痛。

<p>Recently, I've been seeing a guy.<br>He is a soldier - twice divorced - and has two kids. He's also 3 years younger than me.<br>The first time he came over to my place, I cooked dinner for him and we chatted.<br>The second time, we hugged each other to sleep.<br>The third time, we made out.<br>The fourth time, we were intimate with each other.<br>Today, however, he suddenly said that he wants to take things more slowly, because he feels that we've been moving too quickly.<br>As I am also divorced, I can understand, but then why does my heart still hurt so much?<br>It really hurts, a lot.<br>He said that we can still sleep together and hug, it's just that we should really become true friends, first.<br>I think I understand, but... my heart still really hurts.</p>